Sunday, June 19, 2011

Chicago, in the beginning...

This is my first blog post from Chicago!!  I don’t have a lot of time to blog, but I am going to try my best to update when I can!  I am probably only going to be able to give the highlights, so here it goes…

Thursday:  I arrived in Chicago (very early)!  I was the first student to get here, and most of the students didn’t get in until the late afternoon/early evening.  The staff is great though, so I mostly just hung out with them until the other students got here.  So Thursday was just kind of getting to know people/moving into the dorm!

Friday:  We were broken up into two teams and we (the students) had to complete a scavenger hunt around Chicago in an allotted amount of time.  It was fun, but also kind of challenging!

Saturday:  We were broken up into two teams (different than the teams on Friday), and went to explore different ethnic neighborhoods.  My team went to North Lawndale and La Villita ("Little Village").  We ate at a restaurant in La Villita, and it was really good!  Our waiter made us a drink to try called Tepache, which is kind of like a pineapple cider.  He also gave us some free Mexican candy!  It was fun getting to explore the neighborhoods!

Sunday:  We went to church at Jesus People USA, which was a neat experience!  We were then split into partners (1 guy and 1 girl) for a "listening lunch."  We were supposed to find someone who looked like they might be hungry, and then ask them if we could buy them lunch, and hear their story.  My partner and I found a man digging through a trash can, and he agreed to go to lunch with us.  It was a very interesting experience!  The man had some mental illnesses, and he wasn't always coherent, so it was kind of hard to follow what he was trying to tell us.  My partner asked him if he had any plans or anything he wanted to do in the future, and the man replied, "Survive, and die in my sleep in a nice, warm bed."  My heart broke.  This man was simply trying to make it, and it broke my heart knowing that all he really desires is a nice, warm bed, and for his life to end painlessly.  This man was also trying to overcome some addictions, which is never an easy task.  All we could do is offer compassion and prayer, which hardly seemed like enough.  There were many other instances this day when my heart broke for the people of this city.  When we were walking to meet up with the rest of our group, we came across a woman and her son.  She was holding a cardboard sign, and honestly I don't even know what it said.  Her son was sitting on her lap, and my heart broke for this mother and her son.  The little boy turned out to be four years old, and he was adorable!  We gave them some granola bars, but once again, it didn't seem like enough.  Later that night our group ventured to the Blues Festival to get something to eat for dinner.  You had to buy tickets in order to buy the food.  A man was sitting on his walker asking people if they had leftover tickets.  One of my teammates gave him the one ticket we had leftover.  Everyone was sitting kind of off to the side in the grass, finishing their food, and my heart was breaking for this man.  I gathered up all the granola bars that we had left, and went over to the man.  While I was walking up to him, he asked if I had any extra tickets, and I said, "No, but I have some granola bars, will that work?!", to which he replied, "Food is food", and then took them.  Again, it seemed like it wasn't enough.  It's hard for me to see people who are so desperate, and hopeless.  It breaks my heart, and I wish there was more I could do.  It also makes me feel kind of guilty that I get to sleep in a warm bed, and eat three meals a day.  There is so much injustice in this world, but I am thankful that I serve a just God!

Monday:  We went to the campus of UIC to do an outreach.  Basically we went around with a partner, and asked students if they would be willing to answer a few questions for a survey.  The survey was about spiritual things, which we told the students up front.  At the end of the survey we could ask to go through a tract with them if they so desired.  My partner and I surveyed seven people.  Two girls took tracts to read on their own later, and I am praying that they did.  The last guy we surveyed talked with us for almost an hour, and we actually had the chance to go through the tract with him.  It was a little frustrating because it seemed that no matter how clearly we tried to explain things, he just wasn't getting it.  He had the belief that if you were good enough it would make up for any bad things, and you'd get to go to Heaven.  We left the tract with him, and I pray that he begins to grasp the weight of his sin, and how he needs Jesus.  The thing about evangelism is we don't always get to be the reapers of the harvest.  Sometimes we are planting seeds or watering them, and that's okay.

Tuesday:  We got the chance to go to Lawndale as a group, and meet with a man named Wayne Gordon (known as "Coach"), who wrote a book we had to read before coming to project called, "Real Hope in Chicago."  The book is really good, and it was neat to get to see some of the things that were talked about in the book!  Lawndale Community Church was founded by Coach, and the church started a multitude of ministries, that are still growing to this day.

Wednesday:  Was a free day, but it was raining off and on all day.  I didn't do much other than sleep in, go out to eat with a few people, go to Target, and then come back to the dorm.  Our whole group met at Navy Pier in the evening to go on a boat ride.  It was a pirate themed ride, but it was raining really hard for part of it, and was pretty cold.  It was still fun though, and I got some really cool pictures!  They also had fireworks later that night, which were awesome!

The clouds were really low...

Skyline cleared up a little...

Part of Navy Pier/downtown...

Thursday:  We mostly did children's ministry training, and we got to hear the testimony of a really amazing lady named Ms. Pearl.  We also found out our ministries teams for this summer!!  It was kind of cool because they had cut up two postcards into puzzle pieces and written each of our names on a piece.  After everyone got their piece, we had to put the postcards together, and that's how you found out who was on your team.  There are eight students on the project (4 girls and 4 guys), so there are two ministry teams with four people each (2 girls and 2 guys).  Each person on the team has a different job, and I am the "Devotions Coordinator", which basically means I am in charge of the devotions for my team everyday.  I am really excited for all that God has in store for me and my team this summer!!  Later we had Indian food for dinner with the Bridges project that is here in Chicago.  Now if you know me, I am not adventuresome when it comes to food, and I was kind of scared to eat Indian food.  It ended up being okay, but it's not something I would ever have a desire to eat again.  After dinner we had a panel of three guys from different cultures/backgrounds that talked with us about cross-cultural ministry.  We have been learning a lot about it since it will be very applicable to our ministry this summer!

Friday:  We got to tour Pacific Garden Mission, which is a really neat place!  It was also cool because that's the first ministry site that my team will be working at!  After the tour, we left and went to Moody Bible Institute, where a professor talked to us about urban ministry, and God's heart for the poor.  After getting back to our dorm we went over to IIT's campus and prayer walked for a little while.  We then had women's dinner/fellowship time (and the men had their own), which was awesome!!  It was really refreshing, and amazing to see how God has worked in each of their lives!

Saturday:  Was our team building day, so we first went to a camp to do some low ropes.  I ended up injuring myself during one of the activities (I got really bad rope burn on my finger/hand), so that was a bummer!  I actually felt kind of defeated because I couldn't finish that activity or do all of the next one.  There were also a ton of mosquitoes everywhere, and we all had on a bug spray, but it didn't matter!  I got eaten alive, so that wasn't very fun!  I was thankful to get back to the dorm and shower!  I did learn a lot about myself and the other students through the team building though!  That night we had a social at the "beach", which was pretty fun!  It was kind of chilly, but we got to make s'mores!!  We also go to see the fireworks that were out at Navy Pier (again)!!

Sunday (today):  Today my team went to Lawndale Community Church, which was a neat experience!  They had a guy who shared one of his original raps, which was really awesome!  Later tonight we are having a commissioning ceremony, and each of our teams will share our team name and goal for the summer!  I am so excited to see how God is going to use all of us!!

Our orientation week is finally over!  I learned sooooo much, but it was also exhausting!  We had trainings and meetings everyday (which I didn't talk much about in the highlights), so we were busy!!  I am so excited to finally start serving with the ministries!!  As I wrap this post up, I pray that you would be reminded of God's love today (as it is Father's day)!  We have a Heavenly Father who loves us so much that he sent his one and only son, Jesus to die for us.  God loves you, and he wants a relationship with you.  If you don't know Him, I pray that you would come to know Him, and that you would experience his perfect love.  Whether you've had an earthly father who loved you or not, you will always have a Heavenly Father who loves you so much more than you could ever imagine.

"Jesus answered, 'I am the way and the truth and the life.  No one comes to the Father except through me.'"  John 14:6

Thursday, June 9, 2011

The wait is over!!!

This is my last post from Texas for the next two months!!  I can hardly believe that I am going to be in Chicago later today!!  If you've read my previous post then you know it's been a long wait, but right now it seems like I haven't waited long at all!  I am actually feeling a lot of mixed emotions...  I am excited to finally be going!  I am anxious for what God has in store!  I am nervous about being in a new environment with people I have never met!  I am worried that I'm not prepared!  I am scared that I'm going to fail...  I am just depending on God to get me through!  I know He is faithful, and He has good things in store!  This summer is going to be an amazing experience!   I know I am going to be pushed out of my comfort zone (that will start in a few hours...), I am going to learn a lot, grow a lot, be challenged, be encouraged, and much, much more.  Honestly, I am just overwhelmed right now.  I still have lots of packing to do (go figure), and I just don't feel prepared...  I really can't believe today is the day!  It has been a long wait, and now that it's finally here I'm just in disbelief!  I'm sorry if this post isn't very cohesive!  My heart and mind are kind of a jumbled mess right now.  There are really no adequate words to describe what I'm thinking/feeling right now!  I am just praying that above all, God would be glorified this summer!  I am so thankful that He's chosen to use me in Chicago this summer!  It's very humbling when I think about how unworthy I am, and yet He chose me.  Something I have learned during this process is that as long as your willing, God will use you.  It doesn't matter what qualifications, skills, abilities, etc. you have or don't have, He will use you!  There are many examples in the Bible where God chooses to use people who are not considered to be the most qualified, skilled, able, etc. for the job, but he equips them with everything they need and works through them!  God uses the ordinary to do the extraordinary (I'm not sure who the credit belongs to on this quote)!  I am just an ordinary person who chose to follow God to Chicago this summer, and I'm praying that He would do extraordinary things, as only He can!  I wish I could write more, but I feel like this post is all over the place, and I need to finish packing!

Here are some prayer requests:
-  Safe travel (I'll be flying in less than four hours from now)
-  Energy/stamina (I didn't go to sleep)
-  Boldness/courage
-  Unity for the team I will be joining
-  That God would remove my doubts and fears

"For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline."  2 Timothy 1:7 (NIV)

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Wait...

Once again, I am so sorry for not posting in forever!  Life has been crazy as usual.  Most of the time I write my posts late at night (I think my brain works best then/it's quiet, and I can think).  The problem with this is I tend to fall asleep before I can finish my posts or even get to them.  Anyways, I am going to try to do a better job in Chicago!  I can't believe it's almost here!  I will be in Chicago in one week!  It's just crazy to think that after all this time, I'm finally getting to go!  I've waited three years for this.  God knows I have been less than patient in my waiting, and at times frustrated and confused.  However, I trust that my waiting has a purpose, and I have learned a lot over the past three years!  I think one of the hardest things in life is waiting.  It's especially difficult in this fast paced society where instant gratification is expected.  Most of you probably don't know how I ended up here, waiting.  I want to share my story with you because I think it's important, and I hope that God will be glorified through it.

Warning:  I'm going to "fast forward" through some stuff, and I hope that it won't be too confusing!
It all started when I was growing up.  I grew up in the church, and a good one at that.  I was involved in everything (sounds familiar...).  Anyways, I remember this one time when I was in Team Kids (way back in the day), I think I might've been in fourth grade, and we watched some movie or show, and it talked about missionaries.  I was fascinated.  I remember telling everyone that I wanted to be a missionary someday (I don't know if my family remembers this or not because I didn't even remember this until recently).  So fast forward to high school.  Now I wasn't a "bad" kid...  I was considered to be a "good" kid.  I knew all the Sunday school answers, I went to church, I didn't do things that were considered to be "bad", but something was missing.  I knew that going to church didn't make me a Christian and wouldn't save me.  I knew that I could never be good enough, and I was stubborn.  I had known all of this for a long time, but I still hadn't given my life to Christ.  Why?  I'm not really sure.  I think what held me back for a long time was my anger and lack of trust in God.  I'll make this the short version for now, because this is a whole different story in itself...  Anyways, in seventh grade I was diagnosed with a very rare and serious blood disorder.  My immune system was too low for me to be in school, and around a lot of people.  I stayed home, out of school, church, dance, away from friends, etc. from November of seventh grade, all the way until I went back to school in eighth grade.  So it ended up being about nine or ten months that I was at home.  But like I said, this is another story, so I am going to fast forward through a lot of it.  As a middle schooler/new teenager, I was so angry with God.  I blamed Him for my disease, and wondered how/why He would let that happen to me.  I struggled with this for a long time.  So back to high school, my life is more normal at this point, but still something is missing.  In summer 2005, after my freshmen year of high school I went to a summer camp with the youth group from church.  I remember feeling kind of anxious about camp because I knew that God was going to get ahold of me.  Sure enough, Tuesday night came, and we all went into the auditorium for worship and then a message.  The message that night was on the parable of the Prodigal Son (Luke 15:11-32), one I had heard countless times before, but this time it was different.  God grabbed hold of my heart, and showed me that I am just as much a sinner as any of the "bad" kids.  That I am no better than anyone else, and I needed someone to rescue me.  That night, July 19, 2005, I asked Jesus into my heart to be my Lord and Savior.  That was the best decision of my life.  Now things didn't all of a sudden turn out like a fairytale, with everything being magically fixed.  Life was still life, and things weren't perfect.  However, I knew that God was faithful, and I trusted that He had a plan for me.  So fast forward a few years...  Still in high school, probably about junior year I became aware of a cause called Invisible Children.  Basically Invisible Children started when three guys from California traveled to Africa with a camera in 2003.  They ended up in northern Uganda, where they witnessed and heard many stories of horror from the children there.  In case you weren't aware, Uganda has been devastated by conflict.  Joseph Kony is the leader of the Lord's Resistance Army (LRA), and has committed all kinds of crimes against humanity, including murdering thousands of people, and displacing millions.  This has been going on for over 23 years...  Joseph Kony started out abducting children, and forcing them to become soldiers in his army.  Entire generations have grown up never knowing peace, and have been witness/victim to countless atrocities.  I don't want to go off on another tangent, so if you'd like to know more, check out Invisible Children's website or talk to me!  This however is an important part of my journey.  After learning more about Uganda, I had a desire to one day go on a mission trip there.  My heart broke for the people, the children there.  So fast forward to summer of 2008...  I had just graduated high school, and I was going on a mission trip to NYC with the youth group at church.  This was going to be my first "real" mission trip, and I was so excited.  Like everything else, there are many stories that go along with this trip, but I am just trying to give you a brief glimpse of how I ended up here.  We were in NYC for a week, and I fell in love.  I loved serving the people there.  A lot of times it broke my heart, but it was amazing.  After coming back from NYC, I knew that I wanted to go on a "big" (more than a week or two) summer mission trip.  At this point in time, I still had my heart set on Uganda.  I remember fall semester of my freshmen year of college, and how I would spend hours and hours on my computer researching different mission trips.  I think by Christmas time I had found an organization that I wanted to go to Uganda with.  I told my parents I wanted to go for a month or two, and they were not too thrilled.  Also, there was a slight problem in the fact that my health prevented me from being able to get all the immunizations I needed to go there.  I think I was in denial or something because I still kept thinking that I was going to go to Uganda.  So summer rolled around, and I didn't go on any mission trips.  I was pretty bummed, but I figured I would just go the next summer.  Well sophomore year came, and I guess I came to my senses.  I had also loved NYC all this time, so I gave up trying to go to Uganda, and decided on NYC.  I had to research even more this time, and I was having a lot of trouble finding a trip where you could go as an individual, but be apart of a group there, and stay for more than a week.  Eventually I found Campus Crusade for Christ's Summer Projects.  I found a mission trip to NYC working in the inner city for five weeks, and it seemed perfect.  It was a little pricey, but NYC is expensive!  I told my parents about my new idea, and they were a little more supportive since it was in the U.S., and not Africa.  I was sure that this was going to be my mission trip, and that I was going to go that coming summer (2010).  However, my parents thought that I should wait because that coming summer wouldn't be the best time to go.  At this point I was already holding bake sales, etc. to raise money.  So what do you know, but that next summer rolled around, just like the last, and I didn't go on the mission trip.  So fast forward to this past fall, my junior year.  We have an event at UMHB every fall called Missions Emphasis Week (MEW) where missions is the focus.  Missionaries come from all over the world to speak with students, and to share their experiences/knowledge.  I always loved MEW, and I had scoped it out for the previous two years.  Anyways, I got a list of the missionaries that were going to be at MEW, and their bios, and one jumped out at me.  There was a lady coming who had worked with Campus Crusade in NYC, and it turns out that she didn't live far from UMHB.  I emailed her right away, and told her that I was very interested in going on Campus Crusade's summer project to NYC, and that I would love to talk to her.  Of course she emailed me back, and we set up a time to meet during MEW.  Now right before MEW, probably a week or two, Campus Crusade updated their Summer Project website with the new projects for this summer (2011).  Now the NYC project had five different tracts (sections), and for some reason the inner city one wasn't showing up.  I thought they must've left it off on accident, or something was wrong with the website.  So fast forward, back to MEW...  I met with this lady, and we began talking. I ended up finding out that they were not going to have that section of the NYC project this summer.  I was devastated.  First Uganda, now NYC.  I was slowly starting to lose hope.  She told me that a few other major cities had inner city summer projects (which I already knew from my research).  She suggested that I look into the Chicago inner city project, especially since a majority of the work is with kids/youth.  Now back when I decided on the NYC project, Chicago was my second choice...  Funny, huh?  After talking with this lady (for over an hour), I was beyond excited, even though I now had confirmation that the NYC project was a no go for the summer.  I was really excited about Chicago though, and immediately I told my family about it.  Of course my parents suggested that I wait another summer, so then I might be able to go to NYC.  I didn't think that was practical at all.  If I waited another summer I would be done with college.  Graduated.  Looking for a job.  Plus, there was no guarantee that the project would happen if I waited any longer.  I decided that this was my time to go, and that God had closed many doors, and opened another.  I applied for the Chicago inner city project in December, and I felt at peace.  Then I found out in February that I had been accepted!  I was ecstatic.  I couldn't believe I was actually going to get to go!   Now it's a week away, and I am still in utter shock!  My time waiting is almost done.  Soon I will be in Chicago.  What a sweet, sweet thought!  I know this has been a really, really long post (and I hope you didn't get too lost or confused), but I felt that it was important to share my journey so far with you.  I hope that you will be encouraged if you are waiting.  Know that God is faithful, and that His timing is perfect.  Trust me, there were times when I was frustrated, confused, upset, angry, etc., but God was constant and consistent.  Also, I learned so much that I wouldn't have learned any other way.  God shattered my dreams, my plans, and gave me His.  I do seem to remember praying for that now...  Anyways, know that you are not alone in your waiting.  God is still faithful, and he has good things in store.  We just have to be patient enough to wait and see.  I know that God is going to do amazing things in Chicago this summer, and I am so thankful that He's chosen to use me, and allow me to be apart of it.  Ask me at the end of the summer if the waiting was worth it!

"Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord."  Psalm 27:14 (NIV)

"But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently."  Romans 8:25 (NIV)


P.S. - I would highly recommend keeping a prayer journal!  I quickly looked through my prayer journal from a few years ago, and I am kind of in awe right now...  God has answered so many of my prayers!  I felt compelled to share this...  An excerpt from my entry on October 19, 2009 says, "Lord, I really want to glorify you!  You gave me desires to work with inner city children for a reason Lord, and I know you will put me where I am supposed to be!"  If you didn't know, most of the project will be focused on working with inner city kids/youth!  What a great and mighty God I serve!  I am so thankful that I serve a living and active God!